My Losing/Gaining Ratio

My eyes are on fire! I was so mad when Tally said that I was afraid to grow up. We got into a huge fight because she wants to stay and turn into the same boring beautiful picture that everyone becomes when you turn sixteen. I've just finished crying and now I'm actually realizing that maybe I am afraid to grow up. Is that the reason I didn't leave the town? I was so eager to get away from here when I had the chance? I was lying to myself and was full of crap. I chickened out because I wasn't ready and nervous for a change, but now that I've met Tally, I've realized that I'm not alone anymore. I want Tally to come with me, but I already know what she's going to say. She's been waiting for her "secret someone" that has already been turned into a pretty.  She doesn't want to be ugly and can't seem to get the concept that people don't need to be pretty to function. I want to escape that world and go to a place where everyone is ugly, and so to everyone you are beautiful. I want to become who I want to become. No surgeon is going to decide that for me. I rather have a passion to grow, a desire to push myself to places I never thought I could go. I'm so close to escaping this place, but there is one thing I dont want to lose. ...Tally!