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Well, there's been a big change!

I'm new and improved and this old

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Gloves

Right now, I'm not sure what to say...I feel stabbed in the back or maybe pushed into a bushel of thorns. Either way, I'm in a lot of pain. Recently, David has been pushing me away, and always spending extra time with Tally. He always raves about her. Then, I noticed it; he gave Tally his old gloves to work with. You might think big deal, but in the Smoke every gift is carefully thought about, carefully given. People don't have much here, and to give away clothing is HUGE! Yet, who does he give it to? TALLY! I work just as hard or harder than anyone. I jump in first, grab the hardest jobs and I never give up. My hands are ripped up, and full of blisters. It's obvious that David really likes Tally. I guess I know its not her fault , it's just that she has a secret someone! She didn't want to leave because of her "man" who had already turned into a pretty. His name is Peris and he's waiting for her back in New Pretty Town. Even now, she's wearing the necklace that he gave to her.

Somehow David didn't notice, and she just conveniently forgot to tell David about it. Tally offered to give me the gloves but it's not the same. She says she's going to come clean with David now, but whatever she should of thought to mention that at the beginning of their relationship. I haven't talked to her for a couple for days. I guess there's just not much to say anymore...but David sure has something to say very often!

Suprise, Suprise!

Guys, Guys, Guys major news!!! Tally has just showed up in the Smoke today! She followed my message and came. I can't believe I ever doubted her. I asked her why she finally decided to come, and she said that she just needed time to digest the idea of running away from all that she ever knew. I felt bad I had waited so long to tell her about the Smoke. If I had just come out with it, we could have came here together. Anyway, I showed her the ropes and we have been playing around ever since. Well, more like building hoverboarding courses and showing her around the camp. I taught her how to use a powerjack today, and we definitely built up a sweat! I am so glad that she decided to come. Some of the guys questioned her, but I fully trust Tally. She would never do anything to hurt me. They think she might be a secret agent, but yeah right! She's my best friend, and I think I know her better than anyone. The good thing is that David really seems to trust her, and since his parents started the Smoke, I think she's in! Oh, and that brings me to David! I really like him a lot. I think that he likes me too! He and I have been bonding since I've come to the smoke. Now, that Tally's here I have a girl to talk about him with. Coming to the Smoke is the best choice I could have made, and now that I have Tally here with me, everything will be absolutely perfect!

The "Smoke"

Well, all I can say is that I did end up losing Tally. I couldn't convince her to leave everything behind. She wasn't willing to give up her dream of the perfect symmetrical eyes and uncrooked smile. Tally couldn't wait for people to look at her and gasp in amazement. I didn't let that stop me though. I chickened out once and I wasn't about to do that again.
Yet, I still have faith in Tally! I gave her a slip of paper that had a coded message on it just in case she ever decided to come to the "Smoke"(a place where people who hate the goverment come to live the way they want). Now that I'm here I can actually speak of its name. If any Special Circumstances (the evil goverment police) read this its not like they can get me when they don't know where the Smoke is! Well, muhahahah I outsmarted you guys and now I'm happier than ever. I've been helping out David with building new hoverboard courses. Its a hard and long days work, but I love the feeling after you know you've put in some effort and helped out. I've now been here for about seven days, and it's been way better than I thought. Open fires, trees all around, people actually cook food, and everyone is so nice and accepting.

There is no barrier between anybody because everyone excepts others differences. I'm sixteen now and so is Tally! I guess now its official that we are now in two different sides of society.

My Losing/Gaining Ratio

My eyes are on fire! I was so mad when Tally said that I was afraid to grow up. We got into a huge fight because she wants to stay and turn into the same boring beautiful picture that everyone becomes when you turn sixteen. I've just finished crying and now I'm actually realizing that maybe I am afraid to grow up. Is that the reason I didn't leave the town? I was so eager to get away from here when I had the chance? I was lying to myself and was full of crap. I chickened out because I wasn't ready and nervous for a change, but now that I've met Tally, I've realized that I'm not alone anymore. I want Tally to come with me, but I already know what she's going to say. She's been waiting for her "secret someone" that has already been turned into a pretty.  She doesn't want to be ugly and can't seem to get the concept that people don't need to be pretty to function. I want to escape that world and go to a place where everyone is ugly, and so to everyone you are beautiful. I want to become who I want to become. No surgeon is going to decide that for me. I rather have a passion to grow, a desire to push myself to places I never thought I could go. I'm so close to escaping this place, but there is one thing I dont want to lose. ...Tally!

Almost the End of Me

It's getting closer and closer to the time that I turn sixteen! Everyone can't wait for their sweet sixteen right? Well, not me!!!!! Man, I'm so mad at myself that I didn't ditch this judging, superficial society when I had the chance. I'm such a coward! This whole idea of you having to get major surgery just to look perfect is idiotic. I just want to look natural and not be infected by those crazy scientists that rule our community. I'm losing time to run away from here! Only three months left until I'll be forced to become my worst nightmare...a PRETTY! Anyone reading this must think that I'm a crazy lunatic right? Who wouldn't want to look perfect? Why wouldn't you want to party every night?The truth is I think I'm fine just the way I am. Some of my friends were lucky, they ran away and they asked me to come...I was so into it and then I chickened out. Now more than ever I'm craving to get out of this town. I'm sick of this city, I'm sick of the rules and boundaries. The last thing I want to become is some empty-headed new pretty. Recently, I've spied on some of my pretty friends and they have changed so much. It's like they don't care about the last 16 years of their life. It's like they've all changed into old, boring clones. Thinking the same thing, wearing the same thing, and doing the same thing. It wouldn't be fun to stay the same for a long period of time. So I ask you, wouldn't you want to progress and accomplish something with your time?

Oh, just to mention it, I met this girl today named Tally! She ironically has the same birthday as me and she seems really nice. Well, I think she's nice, I met her sneaking into Prettytown, spying on this boy that she really likes! Maybe we will find something else in common besides our birth dates.